Submission is not easy!

Lately I am finding that submission is not at all easy! It is easy for me to quote scripture and talk about how I want to follow this but in reality it is hard.

All is fine and well if there is something I am not wanting to participate in or a decision I am unhappy with in our household and I get my way. I can act a little spoilt at times and use my feminine wiles to have my hubby change his mind. (totally wrong I know and something I am working on!).

However, when there is something my husband is really not happy to do, or a decision he doesn't agree with and I am tugging the other way then I find myself rebelling even more!!

I think I know best, try to convince, offer compelling arguments and sometimes go in the huff (wrong I know and another thing I am working on!!). Why would he not be right? How can I be a good submissive wife when I am doubting his decision and even if it is wrong, not supporting him in this???

So whether right or wrong I should be obedient towards my husband and what he ultimately decides is best for our family and lives. He does allow me to have an opinion of course and quite often takes this on board and even changes his mind. After all wives and husbands are commanded the following;

"Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Saviour. Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything.

Husbands,love your wives , just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself asaradiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself." (Ephesians 5:22-28 NIV, emphasis mine).

I don't think real biblical submission means that I should try to convince and put my own selfish motives above his. I think that I should be obedient even when I think my husband maybe is wrong (of course that may just be my opinion and ultimately he could be very right!).

Child like faith.

¹⁷I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." Luke 18:17 NIV.

Jacob has really been enjoying reading his Children's Bible at bedtime lately. Colin bought this for him around a month ago and he loves it. What amazes me is his interest in the content and also what God is teaching Colin and I through this!

As adults our lives get so busy don't they? We have worries, distractions, jobs, and responsibilities. These all get in the way of God! Children don't have all of this stuff in their little lives and as a result can get connected with God in ways we find hard. What I have noticed is how accepting they are of God and his Word. They question, but not in the cynical way adults can do ( I have done this!). It is a thirst they have for knowledge! A natural curiosity.

Only last night, Colin read from Jacob's Bible with him and it was something that was new to Colin. He came downstairs and mentioned this and I told him how I had the same experience the other evening! We both agreed God is showing us new things through spending this time with Jacob.

God continues to amaze me with the many ways in which he speaks to us! God wants us to come to him like little children. Free of our distractions and worries. Just as we are. Like a child would go to his Father who loves him unconditionally and forgives them. I find this hard to do as I have so much going round in my head most of the time! May it be my prayer that I can wash myself of these distractions and come to God just as I am.