Seasons in life

I have been a little confused this week! Hence the lack of posts! You see this has been Jacob's first week of full days in at school. The hours are 9am until 3pm. I have found this very strange to say the least. Emma and Colin and have too! Jacob is loving it and has settled in fine. No falling asleep in the classroom for my boy! However, I have been finding it unsettling.

Oh how I longed for the day when I got a little more free time with one at school! How foolish of me because now I just miss him dearly. Emma misses him too. The house is too quiet without him. Although Emma is trying to make up for that! The good thing is that I am getting so much quality time with my wee girl and she is actually blossoming because of it. I can see that already.

I think it will just take some time to get used to. When Jacob comes home from school he gets the best of us all. We have been spending time as a family and just having fun together. Coming home at 3pm is great because he still has lots of the afternoon and early evening left to be with us. He also rises early in the morning so I get to spend time with him then also. Emma is so excited to see him and today he had homework and got on great with it! He has learnt so much in such a short space of time and is taking it all in like a little sponge!

In the morning I have been reading from my Bible to the kids. I have also been praying before taking them down to school. We have been reading Bible stories at bedtime as well.

I suppose the confusion I have been feeling is just a requirement to adjust to a new routine. Just having one small child around during the day is a breeze compared to two. When Emma naps I am actually able to have a nap if I need one now!! I am not enjoying this sense of loss I am feeling but he has to learn and at the moment school is the best place for him to do this. I just need to enjoy this chance to spend more time with Emma. She really doesn't get much of a voice when Jacob is around. He is so demanding and she really has to shout to get her voice heard when Jacob is here. So I think this will do her a great deal of good.

I have rambled on here but these are just my thoughts on things at the moment! I think I will return to some degree of normality in the next week or so!